L.O.V.E.

Four simple letters that make up one of the most complex things known to human kind, certainly one of the most complex to me. So let me say a few things about love

1)  i wont pretend to know what love is for everyone, but i know what it is for me. Love is taking someone with no exceptions, with all their flaws and attributes. Love is taking them who are they, and never asking them to change that. Love is being happy for that person, so long as they are happy. if it if that means breaking your heart. Love is being there when they need you the most, no matter what the circumstances are.

2) Love never ceases to exist. It can change, evolve. grow or dim with time, but it will never die. Love leaves a mark on each of us, that we will forever bear on our hearts. One we will never forget fully. We will carry a little piece of each love with us everywhere.

3) Love is messy.

4) For me, loving people is entirely too easy. i have a big heart and it is wide open. please don't take advantage of that.

5) Love can and will draw blood in it's defense.

The list can go on and on but i'll stop there. Just two others things:
In regards to the past:
1) i fell in love with a boy on a train and my life will never be the same. one month, that was all it took for him to turn my life around. i let him in after i swore i would never love like that agian. the love we shared in those breif and fleeting six months was soo pure and real so i doubt it even happened.. then i look at the scar on my heart and know it was. It was brief, but it was beautiful, my god is was beautiful. i believed with everything i was that i was going to marry him, and he was the one. but i'm a different person now. and who knows what is to come. so i just he knows i miss him and that i love him and i only wish the best for him.

in regards to the present:
2) i just want to know how this fair. I've loved you since we were kids, you have always been on my mind and i want to be with you. i wanna hold your hand, i wanna hold you, i wanna kiss you. i wanna be the one you run to when you need a hug. & i know you want me too but there are these little complications in our way. I just want our love to have a chance, and i fear that will never happen and at the same time i have this feeling that it will, but not in the present. and that breaks my already broken heart. it seems as if you and i will always be unfinished bisness. i love you and wish you well, i wish you hapiness but most of all....i wish you love.