So i woke up this morning, and stepped out on my porch to smoke my morning cigarette, and I smelt that rain in the warm damp air and it reminded me of our time in california. Then i found my self missing him more than usual, as i took puff after puff, the memories came rushing back. The tears came faster than i expected...its sad that memories can warm you up from the inside but they can also tear you apart..and today they have me in pieces. I remember the way it felt holding his hand as we walked down the beach at half moon bay. I loved the way it felt so warm and right against mine. too many memories to explain. I miss the way he would look at me and smile like i was the best thing in the world, or how he would kiss my forehead and tell me he loved me. It's not fair that you can love someone so much and there's not a damn thing you can do about it, besides miss that person so much it hurts sometimes.....in time the pain in my heart will cease but i know these memories will remain, and one day i can look back on them and smile.
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